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“… so that He (Christ) might sanctify her (the Church), having cleansed her by the washing of water in the word …” (Ephesians 5:26)

I’m Lex (Alexis, but no one really calls me that much). I am a Student Ministry leader and graphic design artist – among other things – at Church in the Word in the northwest Chicago ‘burbs.

I’m trying to be a disciple of Christ in a world that would make us either completely apathetic or completely religious, and fighting to be neither. I love meeting other people who are striving after more and more of an infinite God, and fighting back against lethargy and complacency – other projects.

The Esther Project has been around – in blog form – since 2006, but in January 2011 we got some new direction. This space is dedicated to the written word of God. We’re a theology blog. You can read the announcement here and here. The personal side moved to Tumblr, mostly.

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Like I said, this hasn’t been a theology blog for very long. Some of the statistical “favorites” are not necessarily theological, so I sorted.

We also recently started a series called “Allow me to explain.” We’re going through a list of 439 supposed “contradictions” in the Bible. You can find those here.


The other pages at the top, Music Theory and Lead Sheets, are my gifts to worship musicians, and aspiring musicians.

If you want to start learning music, the Music Theory page is my gift to you. There, you can download one-page music theory lessons. I’m adding more as quickly as I can make them.

If you want to learn how to play a keyboard, there are one-page Piano Lessons on the Music Theory page too. I took classical piano lessons for a little over a decade, and the transition to a worship team was tough. I don’t know anyone who teaches worship team – or pop/rock – keyboard, but these Piano Lessons are my attempt.

If you’re a musician or worship leader always on the lookout for lead sheets to good worship music, the Lead Sheets page is for you. I try to focus on those songs you can’t really find on CCLI or other popular resources.

Why “The Esther Project”?

Esther and I go way back. She’s held a particular interest for me almost since the day I gave my life to Christ. My husband, before he was my husband, once suggested that if I ever started a band I should call it The Esther Project. I started a ‘zine instead, and then a new blog. The name has followed all of my at least semi-autobiographical projects.


I grew up in a Lutheran church as a kid. My dad didn’t go, and my mom was on staff – so the dirt was known. When I was 13 I was confirmed, which means I’d graduated and didn’t have to go any more. I think by that time I’d already decided I didn’t believe this stuff anyway.

About eight years went by and I went from Wiccan to atheist to “apathetic agnostic,” when God called me out.

Through a series of strange and inexplicable circumstances – most of which I initiated myself for no other reason than I “knew I had to” – much of my world came down around me. At the same time, I had been hearing about God in a way I’d never heard of Him before – that He doesn’t do mean things to “teach us a lesson,” that He talks back sometimes, that He physically heals people, that Jesus is coming back someday, and that there’s a Holy Spirit.

One night, I found myself in a tiny town, an hour away from everything, sleeping on a couch that belonged to a young couple I’d only known for a couple months. I’d devastated the only boy I’d ever loved, all of my friends hated me for it, and I felt otherwise completely rejected by everyone I knew – and deserving of it. I rolled over and breathed, “God. If you’re really there. Don’t leave me here.”

And He didn’t, but that’s a long story.

Now, not so many years later, I’m still praying the same prayer (without the “if you’re really there” part, ’cause I’m pretty sure). And I get to do it with my wonderful husband, Timothy.

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This my personal blog. The opinions that I express here do not necessarily represent those of Church in the Word. The information I provide is on an as-is basis. I make no representations as to accuracy, completeness, currentness, suitability, or validity of any information on this blog and will not be liable for any errors, omissions, or delays in this information or any losses, injuries, or damages arising from its use.

7 Comments leave one →
  1. November 29, 2009 2:45 pm

    Hello, I’ve browsed a few blogs and haven’t found much to comment on, but I love yours. I haven’t read through everything, don’t have the time, and I’m sure there would probably be something I disagree with (I’m very opinionated as well), but so far so good. :). My husband is in prophetic ministry training as well as just being trained up for the Lord, the Lord is training me in worship (my ultimate passion) I’m a 26 year old stay-at-home/work-at-home/full-time college student mom who also works in various ministries at my home. I started my own blog just a couple days ago per advice to help get fans for my etsy biz (I make things, ;)), but I decided to post on lots of things, recipes, etc. Not sure what I’m doing yet, I’m just gonna keep doing till I figure it out, lol. Anywho, I just wanted to comment and say hi, and that I love that you are passionate about God and everything. Hope to say hi again. God Bless
    Anna Boyd

  2. Lex permalink
    December 1, 2009 11:07 am

    Hey Anna. Great to have you here. Stick around – we need more opinionated people! Where’s your blog? You linked to your website, but I couldn’t find your blog from there.

  3. Garry Umphress permalink
    January 10, 2010 2:15 pm

    Thanks for the blogging. Your generation is the edge of the horizon that God is beginning to bring focus to.

    Many Blessings
    PS Esther had much authority and was the proto- type of a servant to the KING! Go!

  4. August 31, 2010 11:16 am

    I look forward to what you have to say. Whether it’s a tweet, a facebook comment, etc. I can count on it being snarky and outrageous at the very least. But it is most often, along with the bold “I could give a s#%@ what you think” kind of attitude, what you have to say is very honest, insightful, and it demonstrates what a passionate person you are. I’m glad we’re buds.

    • Lex permalink
      August 31, 2010 1:07 pm

      Yikes, really? Note to self: Develop better listening skills. :)

  5. March 20, 2011 9:00 pm

    Just stumbled across your blog today. Not many people are as open and honest as you are in your “about me” section. Thanks for being real! These words really grabbed my attention, “I’m trying to be a disciple of Christ in a world that would make us either completely apathetic or completely religious, and fighting to be neither.” That sums up my heart, perfectly! Look forward to reading more. :)

  6. Marie permalink
    October 10, 2011 6:00 am

    Hey, used your A. W. Tozer on THeology page for apologetics and found it really, really insightful. Awsome job! Hope to read more!
    God Bless,

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