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It’s never going to calm down

March 20, 2009


Do you ever have those seasons when your world is being rocked – in a way that makes you feel more sea sick and less concert-goer?

The past several weeks have been feeling very shaky. Plans. Finances. Ministry. Home-ownership. My head is spinning, and I’m just impressed I haven’t gotten completely nauseous yet.

We all have these seasons (I hope), and I’d gotten pretty good at praying through it, talking to some good friends, taking some long naps, and thanking God when He finally brought me out into another beautiful valley. But I think that’s not good enough.

Because Jesus slept through the storm.

The disciples did what I do. They freaked out a little bit and eventually interceded (woke Him up) to stop the storm. And He did.

But I’m not called to be like the disciples (although it would be an improvement right now). I’m called to be like Jesus. I’m not called to freak out, question Him, and – effectively – use Jesus to get the outcome that I’m most comfortable with. I’m called to sleep through the storm.

We all have these seasons, and I’d gotten pretty good at confiding in close friends, seeking wisdom, and pressing into His presence in worship and prayer. But this time all I got was un-empathetic (but good) wisdom from unlikely sources, and dry prayer times. And somehow He’s used it to anchor my soul.

Of course I’m not saying we shouldn’t pray for deliverance and blessing, etc. We have not because we ask not, and He certainly wants us to partner with Him in the earth. Absolutely.

Beyond that, I think I’m learning that instead of rejoicing in my peace and my God at the end of the storm, when He’s brought me to a safer more comfortable place, I can relax in His peace in the midst of it. To say it plainly is something that I think a lot of Christians have heard, and it’s really un-impressive, but it’s taking root in my spirit today for real.

The wind and the waves are still beating on my little boat, I just – suddenly – don’t care as much. If Jesus thinks it’s a good time to take a nap, it’s good enough for me.

2 Comments leave one →
  1. Tami permalink
    March 21, 2009 1:00 pm

    First of all…awesome photo! You must divulge to me your secrets.

    Secondly…I feel ya. And you’re dead on. Love you.

    • Lex permalink
      March 23, 2009 7:30 am

      Ha. I’m sure a million people could have done that much better. Secret? Photoshop. Magnetic laso, blur tool, layers, filters and transparency. And thanks. ;)

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